Day 278

Parenthood. 

Parenthood is coming to a close.  It is the one show I can watch and still get that "though provoking" moment.  

In watching Parenthood tonight I was reminded of somethings about life.  

1.  Life is short, with no guarantees.  

2.  In your 40s you aren't looking at life the same as you do in your 20s.  Especially in relationships.  You are looking for stable, and things that make sense on paper and you may even look at it as "if I invest x, what is my rate of return".  Especially when you're in a new place physically or emotionally in your life.  I'm not sure that is what you should be doing, I think 20 somethings have a way of just being in friendships and relationships that as we get older we complicate with to many variables. 

3. Is this it, is "THIS" what I'm supposed to be doing.  In watching this show, I see 4 people successful at different levels in their careers and life with families etc all in my general "age range-ish".  It seems that based on their ratio, I am not the only one that even at 40 still isn't sure if this is "it."  I admire those that do and I sincerely am ok if it is, but I still am keeping my eye out for an opportunity of something different.  I mean, who really wants to think that the sum total of their life is working as an admin answering phones and typing bulletins?  I've got to admit, that while I'm ok if it is, I'm pretty ok if there's still more out there for me too.  I guess right now, there isn't but in the words of Kathleen Kelly "there is the hope of something else".