The New Year tends to be this idolized time of new beginnings/possibilities. Truth is, the year changes, but often life stays the same. I'm at a point where I've come full circle in my thinking. I want to continue to work towards being an improved version of myself, but at the same time, I am also accepting that I am who I am.
The core of who I am will not change. I should not try so hard to force myself to be some June Cleaver Model 2015. Sometimes I yell, sometimes I cry, sometimes I feel overwhelmed and under appreciated. None of those times are right now, but they do happen.
Sometimes I encourage. Sometimes I sing, Sometimes I read. Sometimes I feel there is very little that I can't accomplish when I have the proper resources. Sometimes I surprise myself with my own abilities. None of those are times are right now either.
Right now, I'm just me. A person who finally realized that there is a reason for the term "average" and typically I fall right smack in that range, with the occasional above or below status. Right now, my life is holding steady.
To be honest, most of the time in life, that is where we find ourselves, right? Holding steady? I mean, how often are you at a cross roads, really? In the grand scheme of life, not as often as you are on the road itself.
I recently was reminded that our goal as a Christian is "to be like Jesus" while our destination is Heaven. I'm not sure if I'll find myself facing very many crossroads this year, or if this is just another leg of my journey, but I do know that while I set here in my average life, that is somewhat mundane at the moment, I'm thrilled that I am getting to enjoy the journey of life right now. Mundane,, average, but good.
3 comments:
This is very good! I think often we are on the journey and doing well, but think we are supposed to be looking for the next crossroads...which leads to discontentment. There seems to be so many resources, messages and devotionals about "change", "trials", "crossroads", but not too many about "enjoying life's journey in the here & now". I'm with you, T...learning to live life now and being present in the moment without living under all these erroneous expectations! Journy on, my friend!!!
Jadee, I find it so refreshing that through the miles, and distance you still can "get me"! :) Happy New Year to one of my oldest (over 20 years now) and dearest friends/friendships.
Nothing wrong with average. Our exceptionalness (I don't think that's a word) isn't what gets us into Heaven anyways.
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