Day 21

Today I've spent some time thinking about lifestyle changes.  How to facilitate a successful change without falling into old traps/habits too much.  Obviously you don't change everything over night and when you have a set back, the best thing to do is to recognize it for what it is and then move forward from there. 


Something I'm trying to work at is looking in the mirror more.  This sounds weird.  But the truth is, I don't like the way I look, so I avoid looking.  I've actually gotten really good at this.  I don't even consciously do it now.  I can remember when I was younger between the age of 19 and 20.  I started gaining a lot of weight.  I noticed it first in my face - I would walk by a mirror and because I didn't like how I looked I started training myself to not look at the mirrors.  Now, 20 years later, I can honestly say that until recently I didn't spend any time at all looking into mirrors.  But how am I really going to change if I don't start accepting myself for who I am.  So, day by day - I'm slowing down and taking time to look.  If I don't like what I see, I'm hoping that it will be greater motivation to change what I see. 


That's the goal anyway.