I am assuming that I'm not the first person to hear the voice in her head that says "don't do that" and proceeds to think she can get away with it anyway. So my question is, why is it so easy to ignore that voice sometimes? Thursday I was at my sisters. I went to climb up on a platform that holds her deck--I was throwing some clothes over the back of it. The voice said--don't do that. Go up on the deck instead. But I decided to take this shortcut.
Kurplunk.
Down I fall. I am pretty sure now what happened was simple. I had moved (not thinking of what I was doing) as I threw the clothes up. I then started to turn to get down and my foot was closer to the edge then I realized, causing me to do a nasty turn to my ankle.
Since I have experience with turning my ankles and with breaking my leg, I knew that this felt more like a turn then a break, but it was bad none the less. It's two days later and I'm still crutching around. Dash is having to take on the yard work and house work and I'm having to be patient and sit WAY more then my butt likes to sit.
If only I had listened to that voice I could have avoided all this. I could be footloose and fancy free to run around and do whatever I wanted to do this weekend/week. Now I'm going to be babysitting this stupid sprang, not getting to be active and causing dash more work too.
What was I thinking? Why didn't I listen? Sheer stupidity. If I fall and it's not my fault or within my control (when I broke my leg) I can accept that. It happens, it could have happened to anyone. You just deal with it. But when there's not logical reason except "I was dumb" I hate these moments in my life.
Why didn't I listen? I hope to learn from my mistakes, but all to often I repeat the same ones. I guess I've got time to think about this--this time, maybe that will slow me down from being that dumb next time. Maybe?
5 comments:
Going to the store tonight by myself really sucked! Not because I mind shopping (or listening to the best of M.W.S.) but because I missed T.
We've kinda made our trips to the store our little mini-dates lately. Hope you're up and going soon hon! :-)
Maybe you just didn't trust your own judgment. :)
I hope your sprain starts feeling better soon. I don't know much about sprains, so I don't know how quickly a person can recover from them.
Golden and I sometimes turn shopping into a mini-date. Lately, those trips have turned more into family outings.
I hope your sprain heals quickly. What a bummer!
Get well soon. I know what you mean about not learning from our mistakes. I think that is a crucial human weakness, everybody does it.
Don't be too hard on yourself. We all need to learn from our mistakes. Living with our wrong decisions is tough.
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