Monday, March 12, 2007

Not ready

I was reading my nephews comments that were posted to his myspace and I'm so not ready for N to be in Jr. High. I'm not ready for her to have friends that are boys too. When I say friends, I mean ones that she talks to and hangs out with like she does the girls. I'm not ready to watch the flirting or attempts at it. I'm not ready for her to get her first real heart break. I'm not ready for "know it all" attitudes or the "I'm grown up now" approach to things. She's already taking baby steps to these places, but I'm not ready.

I know someday sooner then I'm ready for she'll be all grown up and I know that this stage has to happen first. I'm just not ready for that to happen. I know the oldest paves the way for the youngest so I'll probably be more then ready for Cman to get here when it's his time--maybe. I'm not the type of person to want them to be young forever. I think it's the in between stage that I dread. I had a difficult time with it and I don't want to see my kids have the hard reality of life hit them and learning the things that they have to learn on their way to becoming an adult, but I guess it's a necessary evil. All I can do is hope that it's not that bad for them and try to make it a little less painful when the sad times are there.

4 comments:

shakedust said...

Yeah, junior high can be a challenging time. I am sure I'll be saying the same thing come NJ's time.

GoldenSunrise said...

All we can do is pray that God will help us and our kids as they grow up. I don't think I'm ready to start really parenting NJ.

Achtung BB said...

Sounds like you are going through what a lot of invested mothers go through. People generally tend to be more protective with girls. I'd say your feelings are pretty normal. Have faith that she will make good choices

roamingwriter said...

The inbetween stage is a hard one for all involved. Seems like it is harder for mothers and daughters and that moms and teenage boys do better, but maybe not the dads. I think you and Dash have a nice even perspective with your kids that will weather this next phase of life.