So I got to 100 posts today. Yeah, so I created a couple of empty blogs, it's not like I'm the first to do that! I liked them! I am betting based on forrest's comment to me on dash's blog that he thought they were some of my best work yet.
Now I am just trying to figure out, do I continue with my blog like I have been? Obviously some people don't get me. I started this for me, I didn't even know if others would read it or not? I wanted to be able to catch a thought midway through and "journal" it. I wanted to be able to log my deep moments and share a part of me. I enjoy blogging because I have always enjoyed writing. While I would never assume a publisher would pick up my stuff and go "wow, get her to print!" I still enjoy putting things out there into the "cosmic void" and letting them drift on.
I guess, I write most of my blogs for the simple point of sharing a bit of me. I am and have always been a deep thinker and I spend most of my time analyzing life and things around me. I enjoy music and books and games and camping and long walks, and hiking and lots of stuff...That is not what I think in terms of most of the time. I think in terms of my children and if I am being a good mother and setting the right examples. I think in terms of my husband and weather I am supportive enough and encouraging enough. I think of my parents and weather or not there is anything I can do to help them when they are struggling, since they have done so much to help me. I think of my friends and what I can do to be a better friend to them. If my words are uplifting or not. I try to make sure that when I feel I am being too negative that I take a step back and chill and realign my life so that I can be more positive to those around me. This is who I am.
So I guess while I may not always blog things that others want to read or like, I blog me. I put myself out there. Not the me that I want you to see, but the whole of me. The good the bad and the ugly. Sometimes when I comment to a blog I do it in a quippy, fun kind of way and just try to have fun. I guess I am a poor communicator. But I am trying. I am just trying to decide now if it's all worth it or not? What now? Do I continue on or is it done at 101?
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I am betting based on forrest's comment to me on dash's blog that he thought they were some of my best work yet.
Hey don't bring me into this. I had to re-read what I said on Dash's blog. You have to understand that that comment was based on me not "getting" the whole movie quote and the fact that you and Dash sort of have this language that you communicate through your blogs. You and Dash say things to each other that only the two of you "get." Since, I didn't catch the obvious clue and assumed that Dash got what you were saying, I just wrote it off as spousal comunication and went "???????"
This was not a reflection of your posts. So keep goining, you know you can't stop.
Congrats on reaching 100!
Forrest,
Thank you for the congrats on 100 it's fun to reach a marker like that.
btw,I brought you into it because I feel that you often say things that imply that you don't like either me or my style of writing? I really haven't figured out which? Probably because my writing IS me! :)
I admit that I am a little over sensitive to this matter and your last comment was just salt to an already open wound. I take words very seriously. I didn't feel I was over reacting this time because dash said he didn't know what to think of your comment either.
Thank you for clarifying that your comment was not an overall reflection of my posts. I know that you feel dash and I have our own language we communicate with on the blogs. I think it's really just that I'll jump into a thought without explaining where I'm coming from.
And lastly, you are probably right, I probably can't stop. I do get into this whole blog thing. Thank you for introducing us to blogging.
Your over sensitive friend,
T
I hope you continue on blogging. We have gotten to know each other better.
Congratulations on 100! I am only in the 80's.
you often say things that imply that you don't like either me or my style of writing?
I get that a lot from people...:)
But T, I think it is you who does not like me. I've seen the way you look at me and whisper. From day one, you probably thought to stay away from the bad apple. (you were probably right!) :)
Dust must thinks I hate him, because we get going a lot and I ride him hard sometimes. Dust I love you by the way - not in a gay way.
I know that you feel dash and I have our own language we communicate with on the blogs...
You guys do! And I am not complaining or telling you to stop. If vernal was on-line at all, I am sure we'd do the same thing.
My comment wasn't meant to be mean, I was just stating that I assumed you to were talking to each other again and because of that assumption I missed the clue.
Now the Franklins hate me.
But T, I think it is you who does not like me. I've seen the way you look at me and whisper.
Well, I appologize if you think I look at you and wisper. I often before Sunday School class talk to dash or others by talking low, to not interupt others or occasionally it's been so dash and I were not fighting in front of others over stupid stuff that comes up at in oppotune times. I can honestly say that I have never looked at you and then wispered about you.
As for not liking you. I do like you. If I didn't what you say wouldn't effect me. I don't agree with you always, but that doesn't make me like or dislike a person.
The franklins most certainly do not hate you .... neither do the wilsons ... or the spaldings.
I think I am too conceited to tell if someone doesn't like me. I mean, what's not to love? :)
Seriously, I appreciate the non-gay friendship.
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T, don't stop posting. If your point is to keep a journal, then go ahead and follow through with that goal. There are many different motivations that people have brought to their posting, and I don't see why you can't continue if your motivation is to keep a journal.
You're not always going to get a slew of comments with a journal-style blog, but that isn't the point anyway. It isn't that people don't care about what is posted, but that the format doesn't always lend itself to conversation.
As an example, my main motivations are to hone my writing skills and create dialogue about the things that go on in my head. Since my site isn't meant to be a journal, my style will vary wildly from yours. That doesn't make it better or worse, but it means that I have to write with the intention of encouraging a response from my audience. To each his (or her) own, though.
Whatever Forrest. It is so in a gay way! That's why you hide behind the ubersexuals!
Does blogger tell you when you reach 100, or do you all keep track? Congrats on it either way. I enjoy your posts!
Hey T - congrats! Glad I tuned in for this moment. It's interesting to me the honesty that you put into this particular post. I want to do more of that, but have learned some more relatives have shared the blog. I tried to explain though of course it's too late now that it was suppose to be the one just with my friends. I didn't go on to say that now I don't feel like I can do the total real me thing that I was at the beginning. With the limited time too right now, I'm really re-thinking what my blog is for. Kudos to you keep going.
See here, this is where the misunderstanding starts. The following line -
But T, I think it is you who does not like me. I've seen the way you look at me and whisper.
That was a total joke and suppose to be funny. I've seen the way you look at me and whisper. That is a line from cheeseville, who talks like that? For the record, I have never seen you look at me that way and whisper.
I was just trying to lighten the mood.
See here, this is where the misunderstanding starts.
I wondered about that. I was like do I do that? But at least you found out dash and I are sometimes in tiff on Sunday am! (I would say rarely though, we usually get those done during the week and take a day of rest!:) :) :) )
Thank you everyone for the kind words and encouragement. Like forrest said, I can't stop. :) "I'll be back!"
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