Interesting

In one of the books I'm reading it had me do an activity that made me identify stressors in my life. I was able to identify that really the only two stressors in my life right now are: 1. Not communicating with people or people not communicating to me and 2. Not having good relationships. In all the "roles" of my life the thing/people that stress me most are the ones that did not/do not reciprocate communication and do not take an interest in building a relationship with me or specifically in an area that I have tried to build one with them.

It doesn't just boil down to hurt feelings, I'm sure some would disagree. It's more about the root of the expectation. I have a perception that the relationship should be more than it is. So, yes I get my feelings hurt, but the stress is that I keep trying to create the relationship to be more than it is, possibly more than it ever will be. The additional problem is with the situations/stressors specifically involved because of the kind of people they are and the lack of relationship I can not communicate to them the expectation and they do not communicate to me in any form, so the two stressors feed one another and become monsters in the situation.

They specific situations are also ones that I can't just say "oh well" too. They are people that are in my life and yet they are people, who for whatever reason-don't seem to care/want to be. It's so frustrating. I should have written about the good things, not the stress.