Nobody is perfect

You know, sometimes I get in a rut with my thinking. Growing up, I was convince my dad could do no wrong. He was my hero, my role model, I wanted to be just like him. It took me a while to figure out that some of the things I modeled after him weren't even traits he liked about himself, let alone things I should try to be like.

After meeting Chad. I started changing. I tried to be more like him. This was a good thing for the most part. It helped mellow some of my ways that I took after my dad on. But there are still things Chad does that are not perfect, (but not often dear :) lol).

My mom, she was a great mom. In many ways, I didn't even try to do some things, sure I was unable to reach the same level she did them on. But at the same time, there were things and are things that creep through that sure enough I try to be more like her on.

I do believe we are to strive for excellence and perfection, to be the best that we can be. As I am working on building my own confidence I am seeing that I am not the only one that makes a mistake from time to time. I am not the only one who misunderstands from time to time. I use to be so confident that I wasn't willing to admit my short comings. Then I went to the opposite where I felt compelled to mention all my short comings.

I guess what I am learning through this process is, we need a balance. I want to strive for balance in my life. I want to be a better me and I never want to stop trying to improve. It's painful sometimes when we ask God to help us grow, because with growth comes growing pains. But the end is worth the it.