I noticed this week that I have been falling into a trap I have of thinking "bad words." Actually one specific word this week keeps popping up in my head to describe women who are less then fun to be around with less then good motives for their actions.
It's really bothering me. I haven't said it but I have thought it. Thinking is the first step then I start to fall into old behaviors of speaking it if I allow myself. I am glad that I am catching it in the thought process, but I am left to wonder, why?
As I prayed on my way to work, I asked God to help me to be more mindful of Him. I don't want to struggle with old habits, but I do from time to time. Usually I can draw a line with number of weeks attended church to my vocab. Sounds crazy, but this bothered me more this time because I've been going to church, so I am left with "Why?" I don't know? I just know that regardless of the how or why I don't want to be spending the next few weeks apologizing to my kids for things I've said, so it's time now to make sure I'm not saying them.
That was my prayer today also. To be more mindful of God and I asked Him for help so I wouldn't fall trap to my old ways. I have to admit over the past several years this has been a process for me. Catching now definitely shows me that God is keeping His end of the bargain to help me stop before I start.
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I hate to admit it in my "current" position in life, but I've been having that problem too. That and really negative thinking grooves. Somebody stop the brain train, I want off. Wish there was an fast and easy fix for these thought processes.
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